He has been so good to me.  Since we started our relationship back in August with e-mails, he has never let me down.  Although he's working several states away, he has not missed a beat in keeping in touch and making me feel very important to him.  i didn't think it could happen but it did.  i am content with where we are now.  

He has turned on the switch to my long hidden desires and secret appetites.  He has brought to light my need to give up my too long held self control and inhibitions.  In the last few months i have done things with him that up until now have only been in my fantasies and in some of the books i have read.  He has created in me such a need to experience much, much more.  It's never too late to say ain't life grand.

He's going out of town for an extended period.  Just when we had settled into a somewhat comfortable routine, weekends, daily phone calls, ect.   He says that nothing will change between us, the phone calls and e-mails will continue uninterrupted until he gets back.  Our last evening together was wonderful with dinner, ass whipping and sleep cuddling,   Today i feel so uncertain about us.  Why do i have these feels of insecurity and a questioning of my ability to totally trust. . . . . . He has done nothing that should make me feel this way,  but i do.

Current Mood: thoughtful

Finally  i understanding my need to submit to the control of an Owner.  The next step is to begin the journey towards giving and releasing,  by giving up the old and embracing the new.   I'm at a place that i never dreamed i would be at this time of my life, hot, horny, and so very needy.

Current Mood: determined